Well, I think it has been a really good year. My anxiety is just really getting to me lately....I dont normally have the patience to sit and write, but here I am anyway. I hope everyone is haveing a good christmas and will have a happy new year. For some odd reason ive had this feeling that im gonna die or im afraid of dying. I dont understand it, maybe my prozac isnt working or its a reaql feeling. Im not afraid of dying, I think its the fact that im afraid of leaving everyone behind.

Mood: Preety happy/anxiety
Listening to: One last wish -James Horner
Reading: The davinci code
Watching: 50 first dates

Since I have this opportunity to write right now, I want everyone to know how much I love them and appreciate them, my friend Kirsten who has allways been here for me, Nichole who is such a cutie and I love her tons, and Alisa who is great to be with. Tara who I also love altough it seems that we have been unable to hang out. There are so many I could name. Holidays just really remind me of how much I love and care about people. My parents, who no matter what do their best and keep trying to get things done, my mother has such a good heart and wont give up no matter how many times we've been skrewed over, and all my sisters who I love even though I can be a.....mean person to sometimes. Well, my minds now going blank.....I dont think I really have much else to say besides the fact that I love you all and you are all great!

*It was at the hardest times in your life that I carried you.*